180110, 0202am ,
SORRY .
for everything
for everything
Jan 18, 2010
Jan 17, 2010
sunburn day ;
earlier today :
( secret recipe )
celebrating bday boy belated bday ,
*sorry gamba die tak sempat diambil :)
( secret recipe )
celebrating bday boy belated bday ,
*sorry gamba die tak sempat diambil :)
me and liesa
sarah and airah
afiqah
airah | syahir | afiqah
showing that she can eat udang and i cant
omg , it smell so good ~~
i forgot what this is .
me and airahafter abit sunburn :
we stopped at 7-e kejap
just me and liesa :)
aku try upload gamba for almost 3 hours ! bgos jugak , at least while menunggu boleyh buat hw.omg , all hw need to be done now !
dear hw , why wont u ever stop bugging me :/
p/s :
sorry syahir it just too GOOD !hehehe
ade byk lagi gamba dirog actually :)
Jan 16, 2010
survey II
tagged by: claudine
tag 10 people :
nurin
eyka
sarah ?
najwa
*and any other people
Describe your perfect or dream guy/girl.
perfect ? tak de la nk perfect mane , klau perfect sangat karang kite lak jealous ye tak ?
laki yang . . . .
- i can be myself with 'em
- can except me for me
- can actually understand me of being me
- *and others possible stuff :)
Jan 13, 2010
when it goes BOOM !
kita jadik manusia mesti lah tau kan macam mana nak jaga hati mak bapak , hati family , hati kawan , hati semua orang la kan.lagi-lagi hati orang yang sensitive.biasa la tu kan kalau da nama pon sensitive, orang pon tak sampai nak luka kan hati die .
tapi proses menjaga hati tu sentiasa ada rasa semacam hati kita pulak sapa jaga?rasa tak puas hati.btol tak?sentiasa kan ?
kalau ikot nasib, rasa sabar ni sentiasa dapat mencoverkan rasa tak puas hati tu .bila da lama tu lama-lama cover die pon hilang . itu la time , everything goes BOOM!
rasa macam hati nak meletop je kan. mula la semua luahkan apa yang terpendam , mula lah membebel tentang apa yang dia tak puas hati , dari A sampai la Z , sampai orang kelilingnya pon sakit hati dengar dia membebel , ye la kan sapa suka mendengar orang membebel ye tak ? baik dok dengar ipod membebel lagi sedap :)
inilah dikata orang pesen yang suka memendam,kan? kalau nak dikatakan bende ni sihat , tak jugak . nak kata bende ni tak patut, tak jugak kan . klau lama-lama kita pendam pon ,buat kita jadik gila je kan , rasa nak letus cam tak leyh tahan . sakit nyer , perit nyer hati kita rasa. tapi patut ke kita pendam kan mende macam ni ? atau kita patut biar je orang tu tahu sendiri , bagi kebaikan kita dan diri orang tu .
pasal ada gak pesen yang tak suka pendam , die lebih suka let it all out . bagi face to face bagi puas . tak rasa guilty tak bagitau , tak takut . straight forward giler la.
tapi susah kan kita nak straight macam tu, susah sangat kita nak bagi tahu. takut akan macam mana la reaction orang tu , adakah reaction die terlopong or die lak bebel kat kita balik ?
maybe tu la guna nyer istilah , " tak cuba , tak tahu " ye tak ? :)
coz itu la yang biasa nye kita takot nak teros terang , takut nanti kite lak kene attack dengan orang tu . aiyooo . . . susah ini macam .tak pe takpe , kalau die waras die boleyh terima dengan waras. kalau tak tu . . . .
apa-apa pon luahkan lebih baek dari simpan. tu je aarr . kot .
notes; yg aku maksudkan ni perasaan marah k .
Jan 1, 2010
10 silence facts
tadi time aku tengah usha-usha tumblr orang . biasa la kan lepas bosan usha blog orang , usha la tumblr orang pulak . tumblr ni die macam sebijik gak la dengan blog :P
pastu time tuh lak kita terjumpa satu tumblr ni . ini macam die post .
10 Reasons to be Antisocial
Everything important in your life, the correct decisions, the perfect work, the life-changing realizations, they all come when you are alone. Being antisocial provides you with the time for these.
1. Genius is antisocial
This does not mean that by being antisocial you automatically adopt the status of genius, but it does mean that if you, by some slim chance are, in fact, a genius, you will have no patience for average and below-average humanity. You will see it as annoying and distracting like a high-schooler being forced to endure a day in pre-school. You will seek to isolate yourself and work. Again, the choice to isolate yourself and work does not necessarily indicate genius, just a slightly higher possibility of it. Very slightly. Writing, painting, working on complex math problems, all solitary work for the most part. Genius needs room to concentrate.
2. Less drama
Which is not to say no drama. If you are human and you live around humans you will have drama. It does not matter if you mind your own business and keep to yourself, trust me, the cunts and assholes will find you. Being genuinely antisocial ensures that you will run into this less, which is not to say, never. Be ready for it, but going under the radar means that you probably won’t have to dig more than one shallow grave per decade.
3. You gain insight
You cannot ever be rid of people entirely. I know this, I have tried. Hell, even Howard Hughes, the modern prophet of anti-socialism still had to deal with his lawyers. People, however, will be reduced to bite-sized chunks. You will be able to analyze them as you take your breaks from analyzing more important things. Spend enough time thinking about enough data and you come to some pretty interesting conclusions. The fact is that most people reveal far more than is immediately obvious in the course of a casual conversation, you just have to put it under a microscope, which means it needs isolated, and you need private time look at it.
4. Relationships require effort
Usually of the non-rewarding kind. Relationships with chicks involve doing things that serve no practical purpose whatsoever, as gestures. Chicks love gestures. You take this much effort it means that you love me this much. The idea that there is no correlation between love and effort for a man never occurs to them. I think this all started with that old Percy Sledge song “When a Man Loves a Woman” in which the singer tells all the things men will do for women they love. It was BS made to sell records. Effort is what men put out when there is a tangible reward at the end of the job. Like sex. The gestures are all about sex, not to show affection. Those flowers are not merely because I know you like flowers and I want to make you happy, they are because I know you like flowers and I want to fuck you.
5. Conversation-padding
A 2-hour conversation usually only consists of about 10-20 minutes of actual worthwhile information sharing. The rest is padded out with small-talk, awkward pauses while somebody thinks of something to say, and boring droning that blends into the background for the listener. Long conversations usually only happen when both people are stuck in one place together and want the satisfaction of “having shared” at the end of their sentence, meaning that they want a conversation for the sake of having one, not because it actually makes sense to communicate. This results in a lot of your life being wasted talking to people and needless stress as you share meaningless nonsense.
6. Low expectations
Nobody expects you to be the life of the party, nobody comes knocking on your door at 3am looking for a shoulder to cry on. This means you don’t get invited to tedious functions and you get to avoid the truly thankless job of being a free therapist to your friends and acquaintances. Being antisocial means that people see you as a closed door, one that they might as well pretend is not there. This might sound like a bad thing, but it is not. We have been taught that happiness depends on being social, but there is no happiness, just the pretense of it. Why waste time looking for something that does not exist?
7. You get balls
What it is is that you don’t care what people think of you. It may bug you that some piece of trash out there has the balls to insult you (different from taking offense at the insult itself), but then you know they are a piece of trash and you get over it. Being insulted by someone you have no respect for is very different from being insulted by somebody who matters, who you at some point thought highly of. I will give you an example: your neighbor’s chihuahua barks at you from his owner’s front porch, does it offend you that this dog does not like you, or are you just irritated by the bark and annoyed that it does not know how small and contemptible it is? For the antisocial person everybody but a very select few (with whom you have limited contact) are chihuahuas. Fuck ‘em.
8. You don’t miss out on a whole lot
Most people have little to offer aside from the psychological comfort of being around another human being. They are not fun or interesting to anybody, least of all for the people who settle for them. In all but a few instances you could lose a relationship and feel very little, but even when you do, it’s pretty much always survivable. You lose that comfort from being around a particular person, but that’s more about adjusting to change than anything else. The point is that people are not all that important, not all that interesting, not all that fun, not all that essential. You would be making a better use of your time doing a crossword puzzle or learning a few words in a foreign language than hanging out with them.
9. Comforting self-deception
If you are just an antisocial moron, then it’s probably a good idea to isolate yourself so that you can tell yourself that you are, in fact a genius and that nobody recognizes what you are because they are all so stupid. Self-aggrandizing delusion needs isolation in order to reach it’s full annoying potential. It’s annoying to everybody else, but rewards the bearer with a tremendous sense of martyrdom which, in many cases, is the only reason they have to not commit suicide.
10. It helps you deal with loneliness
The most sociable, chatty, clingy, blowhards out there, the ones who try to spend as little time alone as possible, for them being alone is the same thing as being lonely. For the antisocial loneliness is very different from the sensation of being alone, they are two distinctly separate feelings. The anti-social can feel loneliness, but it’s rare. You treasure the moments with no distractions, no background movement, no responsibilities beyond what you have in front of you. That is largely, I suspect, a learned reaction to being alone a lot, but it’s good since everybody has to be alone at some point and it’s best to see it as a gift rather than a burden.
Everything important in your life, the correct decisions, the perfect work, the life-changing realizations, they all come when you are alone. Being antisocial provides you with the time for these.
1. Genius is antisocial
This does not mean that by being antisocial you automatically adopt the status of genius, but it does mean that if you, by some slim chance are, in fact, a genius, you will have no patience for average and below-average humanity. You will see it as annoying and distracting like a high-schooler being forced to endure a day in pre-school. You will seek to isolate yourself and work. Again, the choice to isolate yourself and work does not necessarily indicate genius, just a slightly higher possibility of it. Very slightly. Writing, painting, working on complex math problems, all solitary work for the most part. Genius needs room to concentrate.
2. Less drama
Which is not to say no drama. If you are human and you live around humans you will have drama. It does not matter if you mind your own business and keep to yourself, trust me, the cunts and assholes will find you. Being genuinely antisocial ensures that you will run into this less, which is not to say, never. Be ready for it, but going under the radar means that you probably won’t have to dig more than one shallow grave per decade.
3. You gain insight
You cannot ever be rid of people entirely. I know this, I have tried. Hell, even Howard Hughes, the modern prophet of anti-socialism still had to deal with his lawyers. People, however, will be reduced to bite-sized chunks. You will be able to analyze them as you take your breaks from analyzing more important things. Spend enough time thinking about enough data and you come to some pretty interesting conclusions. The fact is that most people reveal far more than is immediately obvious in the course of a casual conversation, you just have to put it under a microscope, which means it needs isolated, and you need private time look at it.
4. Relationships require effort
Usually of the non-rewarding kind. Relationships with chicks involve doing things that serve no practical purpose whatsoever, as gestures. Chicks love gestures. You take this much effort it means that you love me this much. The idea that there is no correlation between love and effort for a man never occurs to them. I think this all started with that old Percy Sledge song “When a Man Loves a Woman” in which the singer tells all the things men will do for women they love. It was BS made to sell records. Effort is what men put out when there is a tangible reward at the end of the job. Like sex. The gestures are all about sex, not to show affection. Those flowers are not merely because I know you like flowers and I want to make you happy, they are because I know you like flowers and I want to fuck you.
5. Conversation-padding
A 2-hour conversation usually only consists of about 10-20 minutes of actual worthwhile information sharing. The rest is padded out with small-talk, awkward pauses while somebody thinks of something to say, and boring droning that blends into the background for the listener. Long conversations usually only happen when both people are stuck in one place together and want the satisfaction of “having shared” at the end of their sentence, meaning that they want a conversation for the sake of having one, not because it actually makes sense to communicate. This results in a lot of your life being wasted talking to people and needless stress as you share meaningless nonsense.
6. Low expectations
Nobody expects you to be the life of the party, nobody comes knocking on your door at 3am looking for a shoulder to cry on. This means you don’t get invited to tedious functions and you get to avoid the truly thankless job of being a free therapist to your friends and acquaintances. Being antisocial means that people see you as a closed door, one that they might as well pretend is not there. This might sound like a bad thing, but it is not. We have been taught that happiness depends on being social, but there is no happiness, just the pretense of it. Why waste time looking for something that does not exist?
7. You get balls
What it is is that you don’t care what people think of you. It may bug you that some piece of trash out there has the balls to insult you (different from taking offense at the insult itself), but then you know they are a piece of trash and you get over it. Being insulted by someone you have no respect for is very different from being insulted by somebody who matters, who you at some point thought highly of. I will give you an example: your neighbor’s chihuahua barks at you from his owner’s front porch, does it offend you that this dog does not like you, or are you just irritated by the bark and annoyed that it does not know how small and contemptible it is? For the antisocial person everybody but a very select few (with whom you have limited contact) are chihuahuas. Fuck ‘em.
8. You don’t miss out on a whole lot
Most people have little to offer aside from the psychological comfort of being around another human being. They are not fun or interesting to anybody, least of all for the people who settle for them. In all but a few instances you could lose a relationship and feel very little, but even when you do, it’s pretty much always survivable. You lose that comfort from being around a particular person, but that’s more about adjusting to change than anything else. The point is that people are not all that important, not all that interesting, not all that fun, not all that essential. You would be making a better use of your time doing a crossword puzzle or learning a few words in a foreign language than hanging out with them.
9. Comforting self-deception
If you are just an antisocial moron, then it’s probably a good idea to isolate yourself so that you can tell yourself that you are, in fact a genius and that nobody recognizes what you are because they are all so stupid. Self-aggrandizing delusion needs isolation in order to reach it’s full annoying potential. It’s annoying to everybody else, but rewards the bearer with a tremendous sense of martyrdom which, in many cases, is the only reason they have to not commit suicide.
10. It helps you deal with loneliness
The most sociable, chatty, clingy, blowhards out there, the ones who try to spend as little time alone as possible, for them being alone is the same thing as being lonely. For the antisocial loneliness is very different from the sensation of being alone, they are two distinctly separate feelings. The anti-social can feel loneliness, but it’s rare. You treasure the moments with no distractions, no background movement, no responsibilities beyond what you have in front of you. That is largely, I suspect, a learned reaction to being alone a lot, but it’s good since everybody has to be alone at some point and it’s best to see it as a gift rather than a burden.
time mula-mula tu rasa nyer betol jugak la apa yang dia post ,
fakta dia ada semacam betol . tapi jangan laa sampai tak tegor orang langsung . karang orang kata sombong . and kalau ada kawan best ape . at least satu dua kenangan dengan kawan kawan tuh very very very memberable rite ? ( i think )
ntah ! aku pon konfius . =.=
azam ku berazam ,
firstly , sori sayang tak letak chatbox , asyik tuka layout so malass maa , nak letak apa-apa , pasal karang tuka nanti dia tak de balik . =.=
10 . 9 . 8 . 7 . 6 . 5 . 4 . 3 . 2 . 1
itu la kiraan pada malam semalam . dan seperti dimaklomkan digit no.09 ditukar kepada no.10 dibelakang nyer , dan saya pon otomatik-ly mentukar digit dari 14 kepada 15 :)dan apabila digit bertukar , semua pon sibuk menceritakan azam tahun baru mereka.walaupun azam last year mereka still tak tercapai,tetapi still mereka menambahkan lagi azam mereka :)
antara yang mereka-mereka tuh saya lah xD
2010 punye azam ,
bermesra dengan buku-buku
ini memang important sangat nih ! dikira wajib gak laa for me . pasal selau mesra dengan komputer tak penah mesra dengan buku-buku . tahun ni kene la mesra dengan mereka . kesian lak karang diorang rasa dipinggir lak :)
rajin-rajin makan-makan bagi mereka yang kenal saya , korang mesti tau kan yang diri saya ni kedeng ? actually ni azam tahun lepas-lepas . tapi apa boleyh kata , azam ni tak penah terkabul =.=
kemas dan rapi
hehehehe , saya ni penyemak orang nyer . jadik tahun ni rasa nyer nak try jadik pengemas sikit lah . baru sedap mata memandang . ada anta betol ?
silence is golden , but ducktap is silver?
ini apa yang aku da janji kat deya . soo kene la tunai kan . kalau nk tau apa mende nyer ni . tanye la die :)
kerenah homework sebelom ni tak penah layan homework sampai masa luput dia baru nak bukak homework. hi hi hi hi hi . so tahun ni nak try time tu dia muncul , time tu gak lah kita beres kan . balik boleh relax sikit
duit-duit-duit dijimat dengan cermat
tahun lepas banyak lak guna duit . apa boleh buat . phone sentiasa berdering . duit pon melayang macam tu je . soo tahun ni kira tak nak lah mendering mereka , bagi mereka mendering kita lak :P
fuhh ! sebenarnyer banyak lagi , tapi banyak yang merepek la .
P/S: harap maklom.tahun ni , atas sebab PMR . modem dikatakan akan ditarik . hanya boleh online pada weekend saja la . makna nyer blog , facebook dan myspace tidak akan dibukan selalu .
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